I am not the sort of man who shares what he is going through or reveal his feelings.Yuck!it is simply disgusting and frankly i judge any and everyone who does.But sometimes i just cannot help myself.
I knew the first time i saw you
That I'll be miserable soon enough
I saw how it was going to be right away
I knew you were going to make me cry.
I kept my feelings under check
I kept them well disguised
I kept telling myself it was all moot
I listened and agreed but my heart denied.
So much time that we spent together
Never alone,there were many others with us
And all i saw is you
Not looking at me, not looking at all.
It wasnt like you were busy, or that i was dull
I simply was not what you were searching
I told myself to give you up
But one look at you, and one long sigh.
So i was back where i started
You were standstill where you always were
I was hurting but there were no tears
How could there be,it was paper thin love.
You were right when you said I was a fool
You were right about it all
So tell me, now that I have fallen
How do i pick myself up ?
I used to laugh at all my friends
I used to snicker behind their backs
Its time they point fingers and judge
For giving you chance after chance.
Only now I have come to know
How you have always despised me
It is now that i truly hate you
Only now i wish i knew how.
As my heart lay bleeding
And as I see you walk on by
I hope to see you yearn like I have
And my only hope is to see you burn .
